Here is a new video that i wanna share with all of you. Two sister@twins!... recently i have been so into their music cover and listen to some of their own songs. This is one of it that i like alot... In my opinion they are quite unique in their own way. Some music cover, they sort of rearrange the music style and make it something like their own. Both are korean but born and raised in sydney, Australia. They are also known as jayesslee@Janice and Sonia.... You can visit their youtube site., just type jayesslee.. Lots of videos will pop out... In their own way, they write and compose their own music, songs and anything in between... They hope that through their songs, with the lyrics that they write... People will be blessed... also at the same time to spread the good news... Enjoy this video guys and bless you!
Thursday, March 24, 2011
Friday, March 11, 2011
Nature Photography Contest... and Pictures... Photography... Words...
Recently i was looking at lots of picture. Really miss taking photos around my home town. My sis told me why don't i join the Green Heights Mall Nature Photography contest? Was kinda not interested at first but after looking at the photos in there, i felt happy for some reason. Not long after that i decide to dig up my old photos and just sign them up for fun. It was not the best but just for the sake of enjoying the whole process of it. 
To be honest, i kinda miss taking picture. Last time i use to walk around and bring my camera around with me. Wherever i go, my camera bad will always be with me. Enjoying snapping around town or at home.. Did some experiment on shooting technique and so on.... Usually i like my photos non edited. I enjoy viewing it just the way it is. The natural colour and texture. It's just pure beauty... What you see is what you get. It's just as simple as that... Sometimes if we edit too much, it would be fake eventually.. But again, it's not wrong... Just personal preference. 
Erm, random snapping is what i like best. It's because you will get a random results and the picture will be more natural that way. I usually did that on portrait photography. I usually will take them for a distance away. That is when they din't notice it and i'll just snap according to the mood. It doesn't matter if sometimes you don't get what you want, but every picture is priceless cause it only happen on that particular moment and guess what, you caught it... See... it's not that bad right??? You kept that memories for them and for yourself... When the time comes, you can share it with them and laugh all you want about it. I believe every picture has stories behind it. What happen during this particular time and maybe for some, that picture is when you spend time with your family and friends or it can remind you of something that you might forget. Well that is what i think and so far i believe in it and i trust yes it's true. 
Colours... Some picture i like the dramatic colours... Some i like soft.. Well it depends on your own likings right? Photography is just so subjective. In this area we barely can say everything you see is correct or wrong. Correct me if i'm wrong. I mean, how do you know that is this way and not that way? How do you know this must be side and not top or bottom? It's just a matters of personal preference. But in certain ways that i think some can be judge or to be corrected, is during sharing. They wont actually say you are wrong but they will tell you if you take this photo in a certain ways, it will stand out more. Something like that... Sharing is good cause from there, we will improve more and learn more from those who has more experience in this field. This 6 pictures here are those that i pick for this contest. It's not the "BOMB" but just for fun... I never actually join any competition before but i just wanna enjoy the whole process of it. It's okay if i don't win anything but i get the chance on viewing people's artwork and look at the beauty of it. This last picture here is one of my favourite. I took this picture using a digital camera... Was having a simple reunion with my fellow friends and we did enjoy the whole day together. It was not easy to meet all the time due to different working path and life so this is the moment where we really enjoy our presence together. That is some of the story behind it... =) Will try to be active in photography soon and will post more in near future. Wednesday, March 9, 2011
"Going Home..." - Expression of my heart...
Each year, we meet new friends... Some we meet them since we were a small kid, Kindergarten. Kindergarten is always where everything start... friendship. Some might start way early than that... In family side of the story.. relatives. Some we might be close with and some might not... In all this, it depends on how our journey is with them... In short, relationship between human... Family or friends, it's all the same. God created friends and relatives for us. He send them as our companion in life, so we won't get lonely and bored. Companionship in life is important... without them, we might be lost cause no one will guide us or advice us in things that we do... In this 23 years of my life, i'm grateful and bless to have lots of wonderful family and friends around me. I love them as if they are my own sis and bro in blood. Any one of them( family or friends in any particular ), will be the one who we fool around with and never ashame to do things that might lead us to trouble.. Thats why we called that, Buddies. Close and Best friends. Eventually, we will feel like they are our another half and some... the puzzle that complete your life.
In less than then 2 years... One going home after another. Some might take it as something so sad, thats nothing wrong.... But i'm trying to take it as they are going home... Life i see is so precious. We live once and die once. Enjoying your life is good.. But there is always a limit in enjoying it cause you wouldn't want to waste it just like that right? Enjoying in a right manner is good but it's out of hand, that's bad. Again sometimes, no matter how careful you are, when it's time for you to go home, you must go... That's what i believe. Since yesterday till today and few days ahead soon... Especially today, i come to realise that i feel that God is teaching us in ways that we don't understand. In this 2 years till today, i've attended funerals of my friends mostly and today relative. In all of them, only 1 are older than me and the rest are younger and mostly my age. To top it up, those are whom i grew up together,,, although not close but still we are all family and friends.
One morning yesterday around almost 2am, i was about to make my way to dreamland but suddenly was interfere by my sister. I heard my door was open and my sister went in and said she wanna sleep with me tonight. I thought it was weird cause she always slept with my parent. I question her and she said my "Nenek" had just left us. I was not shock to be honest... was kinda blur... (my mom side, has another G.grandmother and "nenek" was her daughter).... I thought it was the older one but as i slowly think, then i learned that it was her daughter, mother of my uncle. I feel a little sad. The 3 of them has been together ever since before i was born into this world. So this will give you a big picture of how close they are. Since i was a small kid, i often visited them at kampung which is kinda far away from where i am now. Till 1 day as i grew older i din't make any visit anymore until today.
My G.grandmother is about 96 years old(if im not wrong) and that makes her the only G.grandmother that i have left. She is still strong but due to his eyesight problem before and was not treated, she became blind(not fully.. can seem to see lights) and slightly deaf, ... she is now just sitting down most of the time. My nenek was the only person who took care of her all her life and her son(my uncle) is busy working sometimes so that makes it, my nenek was the only person who took care stuff at her home. To me i see her as someone that like to talk and laugh. Although most of the time i don't really understand cause she spokes in Iban. I'm half iban by the way(MOM's). Kampung friends often came and just hang around at her house early in morning and talk or do whatever they do there like always. Now that she is gone, everything seems gloomy and lost.
After so many years, i came back to that kampung to see her for the last time and send her home. The feeling was rather calm when i was on my way there. As i arrive at that area, everything has changed. Better roads and facilities. In front of the house i took a deep breath and walk in. Everything seems normal and she was in her "bed". Took some time and i went to see her for a while. Then i looked at my G.grandmother. She was sitting alone in one corner if the wooden house, looking aimlessly at her surroundings as if she can see. She actually din't have any clue whats going on and all she thought was maybe someone was gonna Nikah. We all smile when she asked that we is going to nikah... Even if we were to tell her the truth, she will not really get the whole news into her head cause she is really old now. But sometimes at one point, she seems like she know whats going on. Mother's instinct... I felt sad everytime when i looked at her. My nenek was her only eyes, hand and legs. Now that she is not there, my G.grandmother seems lost in my eyes. Time to time she will call her daughter's name to asked her to start the fire and cook some water and prepare food cause it's morning. It gave me pain in my chest.
My mom told me that she stay awake the whole night ever since my nenek was gone till now. Havent rest at all and she seems normal.. But again she is kinda clueless... But at one point, she seems to understand the whole situation and talk normally then burst into tears at one point. Somehow as mother, she will eventually knew it. But she is strong. Thats how she is. During the moment my nenek was about to be taken away from the house, every nenek and aunt burst into tears. I was there standing and watching them carried her bed away. My G.grandmother suddenly said, what to do if she wants to go, just let her go. Dont forget to bring her shirt for her.(in iban dialect...)... But then after a while she will forget about it and become clueless again.
I joined the convoy to the cemetery and the place was kinda muddy. It was my first time to be in that iban traditional ceremony kind of style. Mom said it was kinda a pagan style... Grave there was really old and how far it goes i dont know. After done burying her we went back. My uncle cried from yesterday i think and stopped not long after the burial. One of the uncle there was crying too. He was sort of the person that always came by and talk to my nenek. Friends... I heard that they are also a quarrel buddy... In his iban dialect, i heard whatever that has came out from his mouth. It was something like, " now that you are gone, who am i gonna quarrel with now?" I felt kinda touch at one point. Pain at the same time. If i were in their shoe.. Her son( my uncle) and that man... i think i somehow know how it felt. It felt so lost......
To see how that relationship works.. mother, son, friend... it is something that i feel so precious and beautiful. Words cant describe it. In this one whole day there, i constantly observing my surroundings and see the beauty out of it. Some moments and experience that i will never forget. If you think this is the end of the story, here is one continuation.
Remember that you read somewhere up there that i mention i was told about the news around almost 2am? Near that time, somewhere near jln song something had happened. After few hours i receive news about my nenek, i was woke up by my phone, beeping to let me know that there was a text for me. As i grab it and read the content... I, once again was blur for a few moment until i slowly let the text message soak into my head. I learned that my friend had just past away. Car accident.. crash into a tree and burst in flames. Now i was shock... at first i was hoping that it was not true but as i asked around, i appeared that the news was positive. Another lost for me in less than half a day.
I was inform by my friends that they will be visiting him at night. So i said that i would like to do so too. Everything happened so fast that im still unable to fully soak all the stuff into my head yet. As night approaching, i went to visit him as planed. Arrived at the place i saw most of my friends. One of them cried... He was one of his closest friends back in primary school, secondary and still is now. I felt sad looking at him. Everyone asked my to pay my last respect to him. I was kinda reluctant to do so... I was kinda scared at first. I asked one of them how is he? Is it bad? All he do was looked at me and said just go and see him. I went but i decided to move back... i join the crowd again. Feeling slightly nervous.. i kinda knew back in my head how i will see him but again i asked the same question to my friend. This time he answered me and i took the step to see him for the last time. This time i was rather calm and did what i was told.
I sat at the chair and kept quiet for quite a while. Looking at my friend beside me sobbing, i felt that i don't know what to do. Not a word that came out from my mouth. I only can keep quiet and be still on my own. After everything was done, i went to supper with 3 of my friends. We talk about it and i felt more relax after that.. We shared stories about our moments with him. It was all beautiful... The last time i saw him was during our reunion and that's it. Now that he went home, all we can do is to move on and keep those memories with us. Tomorrow will be his funeral burial day... Some of us are sending him but some can't due to unavoidable matters. Everything seems to happen so fast... But that's life. Some will go and some will be born today. In this case, i feel a little unhappy with how they go. Both died in a unacceptable death. My nenek was stung by a small bee that actually took out her whole life just like that. She was in deep pain... allergy to the stung. My friend.... by looking at the picture in the paper and reading it, will tell you how he died.... it was really heart breaking... It was a great pain. But all in all, maybe it's just their time in certain ways that we don't understand. All we can do is to pray for them.
Since all this incident, i started to take life more seriously. I appreciate everything that i have although i still do want something else sometimes but most of all i learn that, make your life more meaningful all the time and spend everyday wisely. Live your life to it's fullest extent... Have no regret one day when you are going home. Tell your friends and family how much you love them... In all this events that i've been, i can see that having each other by our side is important. They will be part of our life eventually somehow helping us to build who we are today. That Relationship that God has grant it to you, is special. Family or friends... We need each other all the time. Trust me, nobody wants to be alone... In all this event happening, i would say that never think that life is very long. It sometimes can be short. I always said that " life is just to short to be sad"... Live it like there is no tomorrow. Do your best everyday and make the best out of it... More importantly, be happy with it... Thank God all the time for everything and for the life that He has grant upon you.
Parting is sad but where there is a beginning, there will surely be an ending also... Parting with someone you love is hard but life must go on. They did theirs and you must continue yours. This is life.... It is just like a roller-coaster.. There are times that you will be up and sometimes down. To those who went home, pray for them and wish them a beautiful life ahead. They are home anyway and they will be well taken care of and there is no need to worry for them. I praise you Lord and thank you for everything you have gave me. Bless me lord and bless those who are in need of your blessings. Guide me in everything i do in my life and also help me Lord in any of my difficulties. In your name i pray, AMEN!
In less than then 2 years... One going home after another. Some might take it as something so sad, thats nothing wrong.... But i'm trying to take it as they are going home... Life i see is so precious. We live once and die once. Enjoying your life is good.. But there is always a limit in enjoying it cause you wouldn't want to waste it just like that right? Enjoying in a right manner is good but it's out of hand, that's bad. Again sometimes, no matter how careful you are, when it's time for you to go home, you must go... That's what i believe. Since yesterday till today and few days ahead soon... Especially today, i come to realise that i feel that God is teaching us in ways that we don't understand. In this 2 years till today, i've attended funerals of my friends mostly and today relative. In all of them, only 1 are older than me and the rest are younger and mostly my age. To top it up, those are whom i grew up together,,, although not close but still we are all family and friends.
One morning yesterday around almost 2am, i was about to make my way to dreamland but suddenly was interfere by my sister. I heard my door was open and my sister went in and said she wanna sleep with me tonight. I thought it was weird cause she always slept with my parent. I question her and she said my "Nenek" had just left us. I was not shock to be honest... was kinda blur... (my mom side, has another G.grandmother and "nenek" was her daughter).... I thought it was the older one but as i slowly think, then i learned that it was her daughter, mother of my uncle. I feel a little sad. The 3 of them has been together ever since before i was born into this world. So this will give you a big picture of how close they are. Since i was a small kid, i often visited them at kampung which is kinda far away from where i am now. Till 1 day as i grew older i din't make any visit anymore until today.
My G.grandmother is about 96 years old(if im not wrong) and that makes her the only G.grandmother that i have left. She is still strong but due to his eyesight problem before and was not treated, she became blind(not fully.. can seem to see lights) and slightly deaf, ... she is now just sitting down most of the time. My nenek was the only person who took care of her all her life and her son(my uncle) is busy working sometimes so that makes it, my nenek was the only person who took care stuff at her home. To me i see her as someone that like to talk and laugh. Although most of the time i don't really understand cause she spokes in Iban. I'm half iban by the way(MOM's). Kampung friends often came and just hang around at her house early in morning and talk or do whatever they do there like always. Now that she is gone, everything seems gloomy and lost.
After so many years, i came back to that kampung to see her for the last time and send her home. The feeling was rather calm when i was on my way there. As i arrive at that area, everything has changed. Better roads and facilities. In front of the house i took a deep breath and walk in. Everything seems normal and she was in her "bed". Took some time and i went to see her for a while. Then i looked at my G.grandmother. She was sitting alone in one corner if the wooden house, looking aimlessly at her surroundings as if she can see. She actually din't have any clue whats going on and all she thought was maybe someone was gonna Nikah. We all smile when she asked that we is going to nikah... Even if we were to tell her the truth, she will not really get the whole news into her head cause she is really old now. But sometimes at one point, she seems like she know whats going on. Mother's instinct... I felt sad everytime when i looked at her. My nenek was her only eyes, hand and legs. Now that she is not there, my G.grandmother seems lost in my eyes. Time to time she will call her daughter's name to asked her to start the fire and cook some water and prepare food cause it's morning. It gave me pain in my chest.
My mom told me that she stay awake the whole night ever since my nenek was gone till now. Havent rest at all and she seems normal.. But again she is kinda clueless... But at one point, she seems to understand the whole situation and talk normally then burst into tears at one point. Somehow as mother, she will eventually knew it. But she is strong. Thats how she is. During the moment my nenek was about to be taken away from the house, every nenek and aunt burst into tears. I was there standing and watching them carried her bed away. My G.grandmother suddenly said, what to do if she wants to go, just let her go. Dont forget to bring her shirt for her.(in iban dialect...)... But then after a while she will forget about it and become clueless again.
I joined the convoy to the cemetery and the place was kinda muddy. It was my first time to be in that iban traditional ceremony kind of style. Mom said it was kinda a pagan style... Grave there was really old and how far it goes i dont know. After done burying her we went back. My uncle cried from yesterday i think and stopped not long after the burial. One of the uncle there was crying too. He was sort of the person that always came by and talk to my nenek. Friends... I heard that they are also a quarrel buddy... In his iban dialect, i heard whatever that has came out from his mouth. It was something like, " now that you are gone, who am i gonna quarrel with now?" I felt kinda touch at one point. Pain at the same time. If i were in their shoe.. Her son( my uncle) and that man... i think i somehow know how it felt. It felt so lost......
To see how that relationship works.. mother, son, friend... it is something that i feel so precious and beautiful. Words cant describe it. In this one whole day there, i constantly observing my surroundings and see the beauty out of it. Some moments and experience that i will never forget. If you think this is the end of the story, here is one continuation.
Remember that you read somewhere up there that i mention i was told about the news around almost 2am? Near that time, somewhere near jln song something had happened. After few hours i receive news about my nenek, i was woke up by my phone, beeping to let me know that there was a text for me. As i grab it and read the content... I, once again was blur for a few moment until i slowly let the text message soak into my head. I learned that my friend had just past away. Car accident.. crash into a tree and burst in flames. Now i was shock... at first i was hoping that it was not true but as i asked around, i appeared that the news was positive. Another lost for me in less than half a day.
I was inform by my friends that they will be visiting him at night. So i said that i would like to do so too. Everything happened so fast that im still unable to fully soak all the stuff into my head yet. As night approaching, i went to visit him as planed. Arrived at the place i saw most of my friends. One of them cried... He was one of his closest friends back in primary school, secondary and still is now. I felt sad looking at him. Everyone asked my to pay my last respect to him. I was kinda reluctant to do so... I was kinda scared at first. I asked one of them how is he? Is it bad? All he do was looked at me and said just go and see him. I went but i decided to move back... i join the crowd again. Feeling slightly nervous.. i kinda knew back in my head how i will see him but again i asked the same question to my friend. This time he answered me and i took the step to see him for the last time. This time i was rather calm and did what i was told.
I sat at the chair and kept quiet for quite a while. Looking at my friend beside me sobbing, i felt that i don't know what to do. Not a word that came out from my mouth. I only can keep quiet and be still on my own. After everything was done, i went to supper with 3 of my friends. We talk about it and i felt more relax after that.. We shared stories about our moments with him. It was all beautiful... The last time i saw him was during our reunion and that's it. Now that he went home, all we can do is to move on and keep those memories with us. Tomorrow will be his funeral burial day... Some of us are sending him but some can't due to unavoidable matters. Everything seems to happen so fast... But that's life. Some will go and some will be born today. In this case, i feel a little unhappy with how they go. Both died in a unacceptable death. My nenek was stung by a small bee that actually took out her whole life just like that. She was in deep pain... allergy to the stung. My friend.... by looking at the picture in the paper and reading it, will tell you how he died.... it was really heart breaking... It was a great pain. But all in all, maybe it's just their time in certain ways that we don't understand. All we can do is to pray for them.
Since all this incident, i started to take life more seriously. I appreciate everything that i have although i still do want something else sometimes but most of all i learn that, make your life more meaningful all the time and spend everyday wisely. Live your life to it's fullest extent... Have no regret one day when you are going home. Tell your friends and family how much you love them... In all this events that i've been, i can see that having each other by our side is important. They will be part of our life eventually somehow helping us to build who we are today. That Relationship that God has grant it to you, is special. Family or friends... We need each other all the time. Trust me, nobody wants to be alone... In all this event happening, i would say that never think that life is very long. It sometimes can be short. I always said that " life is just to short to be sad"... Live it like there is no tomorrow. Do your best everyday and make the best out of it... More importantly, be happy with it... Thank God all the time for everything and for the life that He has grant upon you.
Parting is sad but where there is a beginning, there will surely be an ending also... Parting with someone you love is hard but life must go on. They did theirs and you must continue yours. This is life.... It is just like a roller-coaster.. There are times that you will be up and sometimes down. To those who went home, pray for them and wish them a beautiful life ahead. They are home anyway and they will be well taken care of and there is no need to worry for them. I praise you Lord and thank you for everything you have gave me. Bless me lord and bless those who are in need of your blessings. Guide me in everything i do in my life and also help me Lord in any of my difficulties. In your name i pray, AMEN!
~ "Life is not a matter of milestones, but of moments" ~
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Chris Medina - What Are Words
This is a Very inspiring and touching song that i've ever heard.. A touching story behind it and sweet. Through this song, he opens everyone's eye and tell them that true love does exist. View it or see it in your own way... Feel it and you will know how he feels. Two thumbs up to him and May God bless him and his wife... Pray that his wife will recover soon. Enjoy... =)
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